How to describe yesterday? A day of opposites on many levels ...
Rain then sun then rain again.
Feeling down then cheering up only to crash back down again.
Desperately lonely then being blessed with the wonderful company of two friends.
Waking up with nerve pain not feeling too bad only for it to increase to raging intensity gain by mid morning.
An odd day.
Towards the end of the evening I 'went over' on my left ankle, off the high orthopaedic shoe I am wearing on that foot.
"Oh for goodness sake, what next?" I grumbled to myself. In truth there was an expletive in there as well.
I do this quite often but never has it filled me with such fear as yesterday. The resulting pain in my entire foot was excruciating, especially along the new surgical scar. I managed to stay up for an hour only to decide I was better off trying to sleep. That way I would cease worrying about what damage I may have done to the bone fusion.
I slept 10 hours straight. This would be nothing short of a miracle at the best of times and was certainly a surprise given the state I went to bed in. I awoke to light seeping in around the curtains and silence. No rain. I rolled over, swung my legs over the side of the bed and began the palaver of putting on my wedge shoe.
"Hang on a minute," I muttered out loud.
No nerve pain from the sole of my foot. Nothing. No bruising from falling off the shoe. No swelling. Just the constant ache of healing bones, a bit of a nerve 'fizz' on the base of the big toe that I was told to expect and which I haven't noticed until today and the very peculiar soft, silk-like nerve sensation that is still around my ankle.
I stood, tentatively. I waddled a couple of steps. Nothing changed.
Well, I will not know if I have done any damage to the fusion until it is X-Rayed in 4 weeks time. It doesn't feel like it however I shall keep my fingers crossed anyway. It is a complete mystery what caused this awful pain and why it should be relieved by standing. It is also a complete mystery as to why it has gone away.
A wise man once said to me that there is no such thing as coincidence.